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6. 爱，不在了。

I don't wanna run away but i cant take it, i dont understand.
6 years down the road. 我累了，
6 liters of tears. 我真的泪了。
6 thousands kisses.
6 million seconds of time spent together.
& i just realise, everything has the ability to vanish within minutes.
I would like to appreciate what ever you have done for me.
I would like to be happy for you if u found ur happiness.
But how can i do it, if it is still so hurtful after so long.
& for goodness sake, who would like to feel jealous, its not as if its ecstasy.
FUCKit.
I just can't take the fact that you fall in love so easily.
I can't take the fact that u always go against things that u assure ppl.
I hear u say over and over again that its impossible for u and her. and now?
HA, i shld've known. It's the second time/second girl anyway.
You say i shouldn't only care for myself and be so selfish, think about you. My world PRACTICALLY REVOLVES AROUND YOU. Why would i not think for you?
You are just contradicting yourself, u tell me u are not that kind of man.
But just months ago u tell me u are so deeply hurt that u don't feel like going into any relationships for now.
You are a the good man here, alrite?
I am sorry for getting jealous over every girl that u dote on & plant my sarcasms on you because of that.
But i just can't take it anymore.
I am sorry that ily.
but i really wonder.
If you are no longer by my side, would i have the strength to stand at all?
I once thought i've got u and u've got me.