Most optimistic ever.
Ok as mentioned i am going to take my chances,
if not , i bet i'll regret for the rest of my life.
ARGH, i know , all that effort and will.
I'll do it for you, Just this once.
^^
Obviously i am in a good mood,
Ahh..
Love , it never fails to amaze me
Make you shocked, Make you mine.
I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you poise yourself.
Trust me, you are definately not
what you mentioned
>I got no money, no cars, no cashcards, no looks, no confidence, no skills, no talent, no girlfriend. But a great life=)
You make great guy :)
Friday, February 5, 2010
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
我對以往的感觸還那麼多
愛上你等於愛上寂寞.
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著不平息
最怕突然 聽到你的消息
突然好想你
突然鋒利的回憶
突然模糊的眼睛
Wo dao di hai yao guo duo jiu zhe yang de re zi.
Xing de yi nian..
wo xi wang, zhe yi qie ke yi gai bian.
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著不平息
最怕突然 聽到你的消息
突然好想你
突然鋒利的回憶
突然模糊的眼睛
Wo dao di hai yao guo duo jiu zhe yang de re zi.
Xing de yi nian..
wo xi wang, zhe yi qie ke yi gai bian.
Monday, January 4, 2010
This year i will...
- Accept
- Let go
- Watch the sky
- Go cloud watching and find an animal or two.
- See the good in people
- Be more understanding
- Be less indecisive
- Be available *grins
- Dance
- Be patient
- Take more chances
- Write a story
- Do what i love
- Try harder
- Reduce
- Be serious
- Calm down
- Be true to myself and others.
- Follow my own advice
- Write a love letter
- Show gratitude
- Learn to tie a tie
- Declutter my room
- Be courageous
- Take more photos.
- Appreciate the simple things
- Be spiritual
- Spread Joy
- Be carefree
- Give up my bad habit
- Complain lesser
- Trust my instincts
- Become an expert on something, YES, That.
...not make any resolutions above come true.
People never change...or do they?
Been playing alot of LoL lately,
Well it seems that other then work, you have been pretty much playing that too.
From the pm of the game,
you seem to have a new love lately, Janicia
she is no stranger, met here once, heard alot about her from Felicia and some from you,
that you feel that she has the same kind of personality as you do.
But oh well, who knows?
The moment i saw that pm, couldnt help it but my mood went out of control again.
Vented my anger on Brian, again.
{ I am so sorry Brian, its always you. Thank you so much, if not for you i have no idea what have become of me i know i told you a gazillion times it wouldn't matter to me anymore but i just couldn't keep my promise.}
Schools, games ,Clubs and drinking my life away seems to be the only things i do after the impact when you left me.
You never seem to change at all, first it was choc, then it was me, sher, Felicia and now janicia.
I never knew what was going on in your mind all along ...
love? looks? lust?
You make me wonder, 6 years... march 14's coming again soon.
The feelings' getting greater, every year you spend it with a different girl.
Did you really think i could handle all this?
It has been a a year or two since you left me, but your voice and images just kept ringing up in my mind
day and nite,
Everytime something happens to me, i think of you, hoping that you will be there for me at that very moment
happiness, disappointment, sorrows, at the verge of breakdown,
I always hope you were there.
In reality,
...i couldn't even share a thought with you now.
Situations just had to become so bad between us...
Just like quicksand, the more i struggle to forget you, the worst it gets for me.
I am seriously ashamed of myself
全都是骗自己
其实...还爱你.
In the past, at the point where everybody thinks that it's ok for me,
only you come by telling me that i lead a lonely life that lacks joy, laughter and motivation.
You brought me those in the 4 years,
then after, you took it all away.
Well it seems that other then work, you have been pretty much playing that too.
From the pm of the game,
you seem to have a new love lately, Janicia
she is no stranger, met here once, heard alot about her from Felicia and some from you,
that you feel that she has the same kind of personality as you do.
But oh well, who knows?
The moment i saw that pm, couldnt help it but my mood went out of control again.
Vented my anger on Brian, again.
{ I am so sorry Brian, its always you. Thank you so much, if not for you i have no idea what have become of me i know i told you a gazillion times it wouldn't matter to me anymore but i just couldn't keep my promise.}
Schools, games ,Clubs and drinking my life away seems to be the only things i do after the impact when you left me.
You never seem to change at all, first it was choc, then it was me, sher, Felicia and now janicia.
I never knew what was going on in your mind all along ...
love? looks? lust?
You make me wonder, 6 years... march 14's coming again soon.
The feelings' getting greater, every year you spend it with a different girl.
Did you really think i could handle all this?
It has been a a year or two since you left me, but your voice and images just kept ringing up in my mind
day and nite,
Everytime something happens to me, i think of you, hoping that you will be there for me at that very moment
happiness, disappointment, sorrows, at the verge of breakdown,
I always hope you were there.
In reality,
...i couldn't even share a thought with you now.
Situations just had to become so bad between us...
Just like quicksand, the more i struggle to forget you, the worst it gets for me.
I am seriously ashamed of myself
全都是骗自己
其实...还爱你.
In the past, at the point where everybody thinks that it's ok for me,
only you come by telling me that i lead a lonely life that lacks joy, laughter and motivation.
You brought me those in the 4 years,
then after, you took it all away.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Memoirs of JxSy.
I heard someone whisper your name.
I turned around to see who it was.
I was being alone.
Been acting up i suppose...
My mind is finally telling me that i miss you.
I turned around to see who it was.
I was being alone.
Been acting up i suppose...
My mind is finally telling me that i miss you.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Does everything ends here?
就这样结束了吗？
有点遗憾。。。
但是似乎不知道为舌么
心里好像轻松了许多，
放手真的不容易
但是。。。放手了之后的感觉的确是很不一样的。
保重了，我的灵魂伙伴
{MySoulMate}。
It‘s the kind of feeling that everyone should experience, at least once in a lifetime.
有点遗憾。。。
但是似乎不知道为舌么
心里好像轻松了许多，
放手真的不容易
但是。。。放手了之后的感觉的确是很不一样的。
保重了，我的灵魂伙伴
{MySoulMate}。
It‘s the kind of feeling that everyone should experience, at least once in a lifetime.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
14 ) Things have come to a situation i don't know how to salvage...For the first time in six years.
FUCKYOU.
sorry for the abrupt entry but yah.
i don't see y u cant see the point.
I have been with you for so long, who is the one standing side by side with you for six fucking years?
Who is the one that has been there and believe whatever that you are doing is for the better/good for so fucking long?
Seriously, its just because u had a problem with that fren(s) of urs and u applied ur so called theorem on me that i don;t put myself in ur shoes.
*JOKES. HA
AM I THE SAME AS THEM IN THE FIRST POINT.
And for her, i dun even wanna mention, just because of she said (i dunno wadever fucking miss goody-two-shoes has said) *be there for you even i dunno what ever ur frens issue. wadever blablah shit u call that * EXTREMELY COMFORTING WORDS THAT MAKE U FEEL LIKE ORGASM ISSIT.* {seriously i don't hate her nor am i giving sarcastic remarks because of u loving her, but you are making me disappointed in you instead. I don't know why so.}
AND Just because of that u actually tell me u feel that i have not trusted you and be there for you giving u the support and been giving u issues instead.
YOU ARE JUST A SERIOUSLY FUCKING BLIND/SHALLOW/IGNORANT man.
Seriously even if u die now. i wonder would she even cry that hard/be in despair for u.
Haven i been there for u for the fucking six years that i spent with you? HAVEN I ?
ARE those to be be forgotten or ignored JUST BECAUSE U FOUND MISS GOODY-TWO-SHOES THAT HAS THE ABILITY TO GIVE U COMFORTING WORDS.
Just because u happen to have her as ur colleague for barely a few months you actually tell me that.Yahyah... i can feel that you are going to tell me sometimes its not the duration of the time its the quality.
OH YEAh? if thats the case y do u think The phrase. TIME CAN NVR NVR NVR BE BOUGHT WITH MONEY come from? ANd y do people treasure it so much? i cannot believe that you can just forget and ignore or don;t even bother to think about the fact that we have spent like fucking six years of time together and tell me this at this point of time.
seriously, if not for ur frens that actually u thought abandoned you. (AND YOU ARE NW ALL ALONE because you have so DITCHED ME but still clings and tries so hard to make you happy girl is still trying to be there for you. sick of me ? i wonder.)
You would not have thot that she is
"Miss Oh so wonderful, wonderful enough to be my wife
and she is so fucking understanding, unlike the girl{typically referring to me} who is so not trusting and not being there for you at that point of time}
Have you even see the effort i am trying to hard to mend the bonds that have been broken with you and ur buddies because i feel that you truly enjoy the times you guys had even for the past six years?
And for her? she doesn't even do a thing but by just saying a sentence you can just ignore everything, all the things i have done/ been trying so hard/ been trying to please you because you feel that whatever i said is sarcasm to your miss oh so wonderful?
I beg you.
I am feeling so lost now, i tried to mend things over and over again, it doesn't seems to be working, it just seems to make things worst.
It take two hands to clap you know? If i am the only one trying, nothing is going to work.
I have to admit...
i might have just said all the stuff(be it here or vocally) that i shouldn't or didnt meant it by heart. but they are my voices within.
And its all because i love you.
I wish to shelter all your problems and pressure you are undergoing but you nolonger share them like you use to with me, u said that i have changed, but look,
You've changed, too. I miss those times we have been together and been giving support to each other no matter what happens.
I don't give refreshing new feelings but at least i can swear and promise i can give you the best care and corncern no one can be there for you like old man and wife no matter what happens in furture or now.
sorry for the abrupt entry but yah.
i don't see y u cant see the point.
I have been with you for so long, who is the one standing side by side with you for six fucking years?
Who is the one that has been there and believe whatever that you are doing is for the better/good for so fucking long?
Seriously, its just because u had a problem with that fren(s) of urs and u applied ur so called theorem on me that i don;t put myself in ur shoes.
*JOKES. HA
AM I THE SAME AS THEM IN THE FIRST POINT.
And for her, i dun even wanna mention, just because of she said (i dunno wadever fucking miss goody-two-shoes has said) *be there for you even i dunno what ever ur frens issue. wadever blablah shit u call that * EXTREMELY COMFORTING WORDS THAT MAKE U FEEL LIKE ORGASM ISSIT.* {seriously i don't hate her nor am i giving sarcastic remarks because of u loving her, but you are making me disappointed in you instead. I don't know why so.}
AND Just because of that u actually tell me u feel that i have not trusted you and be there for you giving u the support and been giving u issues instead.
YOU ARE JUST A SERIOUSLY FUCKING BLIND/SHALLOW/IGNORANT man.
Seriously even if u die now. i wonder would she even cry that hard/be in despair for u.
Haven i been there for u for the fucking six years that i spent with you? HAVEN I ?
ARE those to be be forgotten or ignored JUST BECAUSE U FOUND MISS GOODY-TWO-SHOES THAT HAS THE ABILITY TO GIVE U COMFORTING WORDS.
Just because u happen to have her as ur colleague for barely a few months you actually tell me that.Yahyah... i can feel that you are going to tell me sometimes its not the duration of the time its the quality.
OH YEAh? if thats the case y do u think The phrase. TIME CAN NVR NVR NVR BE BOUGHT WITH MONEY come from? ANd y do people treasure it so much? i cannot believe that you can just forget and ignore or don;t even bother to think about the fact that we have spent like fucking six years of time together and tell me this at this point of time.
seriously, if not for ur frens that actually u thought abandoned you. (AND YOU ARE NW ALL ALONE because you have so DITCHED ME but still clings and tries so hard to make you happy girl is still trying to be there for you. sick of me ? i wonder.)
You would not have thot that she is
"Miss Oh so wonderful, wonderful enough to be my wife
and she is so fucking understanding, unlike the girl{typically referring to me} who is so not trusting and not being there for you at that point of time}
Have you even see the effort i am trying to hard to mend the bonds that have been broken with you and ur buddies because i feel that you truly enjoy the times you guys had even for the past six years?
And for her? she doesn't even do a thing but by just saying a sentence you can just ignore everything, all the things i have done/ been trying so hard/ been trying to please you because you feel that whatever i said is sarcasm to your miss oh so wonderful?
I beg you.
I am feeling so lost now, i tried to mend things over and over again, it doesn't seems to be working, it just seems to make things worst.
It take two hands to clap you know? If i am the only one trying, nothing is going to work.
I have to admit...
i might have just said all the stuff(be it here or vocally) that i shouldn't or didnt meant it by heart. but they are my voices within.
And its all because i love you.
I wish to shelter all your problems and pressure you are undergoing but you nolonger share them like you use to with me, u said that i have changed, but look,
You've changed, too. I miss those times we have been together and been giving support to each other no matter what happens.
I don't give refreshing new feelings but at least i can swear and promise i can give you the best care and corncern no one can be there for you like old man and wife no matter what happens in furture or now.
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