14 ) Things have come to a situation i don't know how to salvage...For the first time in six years.

FUCKYOU.
sorry for the abrupt entry but yah.
i don't see y u cant see the point.
I have been with you for so long, who is the one standing side by side with you for six fucking years?
Who is the one that has been there and believe whatever that you are doing is for the better/good for so fucking long?
Seriously, its just because u had a problem with that fren(s) of urs and u applied ur so called theorem on me that i don;t put myself in ur shoes.
*JOKES. HA

AM I THE SAME AS THEM IN THE FIRST POINT.
And for her, i dun even wanna mention, just because of she said (i dunno wadever fucking miss goody-two-shoes has said) *be there for you even i dunno what ever ur frens issue. wadever blablah shit u call that * EXTREMELY COMFORTING WORDS THAT MAKE U FEEL LIKE ORGASM ISSIT.* {seriously i don't hate her nor am i giving sarcastic remarks because of u loving her, but you are making me disappointed in you instead. I don't know why so.}

AND Just because of that u actually tell me u feel that i have not trusted you and be there for you giving u the support and been giving u issues instead.
YOU ARE JUST A SERIOUSLY FUCKING BLIND/SHALLOW/IGNORANT man.
Seriously even if u die now. i wonder would she even cry that hard/be in despair for u.
Haven i been there for u for the fucking six years that i spent with you? HAVEN I ?
ARE those to be be forgotten or ignored JUST BECAUSE U FOUND MISS GOODY-TWO-SHOES THAT HAS THE ABILITY TO GIVE U COMFORTING WORDS.

Just because u happen to have her as ur colleague for barely a few months you actually tell me that.Yahyah... i can feel that you are going to tell me sometimes its not the duration of the time its the quality.
OH YEAh? if thats the case y do u think The phrase. TIME CAN NVR NVR NVR BE BOUGHT WITH MONEY come from? ANd y do people treasure it so much? i cannot believe that you can just forget and ignore or don;t even bother to think about the fact that we have spent like fucking six years of time together and tell me this at this point of time.


seriously, if not for ur frens that actually u thought abandoned you. (AND YOU ARE NW ALL ALONE because you have so DITCHED ME but still clings and tries so hard to make you happy girl is still trying to be there for you. sick of me ? i wonder.)
You would not have thot that she is
"Miss Oh so wonderful, wonderful enough to be my wife
and she is so fucking understanding, unlike the girl{typically referring to me} who is so not trusting and not being there for you at that point of time}
Have you even see the effort i am trying to hard to mend the bonds that have been broken with you and ur buddies because i feel that you truly enjoy the times you guys had even for the past six years?
And for her? she doesn't even do a thing but by just saying a sentence you can just ignore everything, all the things i have done/ been trying so hard/ been trying to please you because you feel that whatever i said is sarcasm to your miss oh so wonderful?
I beg you.
I am feeling so lost now, i tried to mend things over and over again, it doesn't seems to be working, it just seems to make things worst.
It take two hands to clap you know? If i am the only one trying, nothing is going to work.
I have to admit...
i might have just said all the stuff(be it here or vocally) that i shouldn't or didnt meant it by heart. but they are my voices within.
And its all because i love you.
I wish to shelter all your problems and pressure you are undergoing but you nolonger share them like you use to with me, u said that i have changed, but look,
You've changed, too. I miss those times we have been together and been giving support to each other no matter what happens.
I don't give refreshing new feelings but at least i can swear and promise i can give you the best care and corncern no one can be there for you like old man and wife no matter what happens in furture or now.

13

13) People tend to Love things that their loverboy/girl Love. Don't they?

• I love the different colours u love because u love.
• I love took up the habit of drinking Green tea because u love.
• I love Gaming because u love.
• I love Techno and eurodance because u love.
• I love Soft rock because u love.
  
• I love Denim skirts because u say girls look pretty wearing it.
• I love Listening to smoothing sleepy songs because u love.
• I love Reading lovey dovey sad novels because u love.
• I love Talking about horoscopes because u love talking about it.
• I love to tell lame jokes because u tend to love to listen to it. ( even when u say u hate me saying lame jokes. )
  
• I love ken-chan because u said u felt like him.
• I love thinking about how and what i can do for others instead of myself because u love to do it too.
• I love to cook because u said u like girls that cook.
• I love your family members because you love them, despite what they say of me.
• I love sasha because u love her.
• I love minty stuff because u said u love it.
• I love to smile really widely because u love girls with a great smile.
• I love to eat Prawn mee with 2 eggs because u love it.
• I love SME mac breakfast because u love it.
• I love having my hair smell really great because u said u love girls with great scent on their hair.

Though i have a really bad memory,
but it seems that,
i remember every single thing that you love and thing that you said.