・※ BLåCkfoReST ๑ ツュイソ 1026

Not worth a glance

2010-08-03T13:17:00.002+08:00

You definately are not even worth a thing.
You are worst then a speck of useless dust.
CJ = S.C.U.M.B.A.G
I am glad i stepped out of ur freaking life.
Its the pits.

This will come into use sooner or later i guess

2010-07-30T10:32:00.001+08:00

❒ Taken ❒ Single ✔ In love with him.

P.s This is for you loser

2010-07-12T11:18:00.002+08:00

P.S SEXUALLY DEPRIVED SUCIDAL 3RD CLASS MANKIND.
Hey
Just so you know, having a deg with 3rd class honours isnt exactly anything.
You have a shitlike personality that turns people off
Superior AND CHARMING?
You think the whole wide world wants you that badly ?
All that confidence WAS BLESSED BY ME,
AND I CAN TAKE IT ALL AWAY IF I WANT TO.
I SHALL LET YOU HAVE IT AND NOT TAKE IT AWAY.
CUX U'LL NEED ALL THAT EGO
TO CARRY ON LIVING.

WTC

2010-06-21T15:07:00.003+08:00

LOL
Seriously
Such a loser
U lack the only thing i respect in man.
Dignity.
U actually beg and plead that women?
Oh god.
And yet i dunno why, u seem to be blaming god for doing all this to you,
C'mon u deserve it
If u are unable to keep her by your side
Even your job, if you don't get it, you don't deserve it, start looking for another one already
Stop blaming and complaining god for everything and the least you could do is to take things in your stride.

hmm

2010-06-13T22:17:00.002+08:00

I Miss you

15 (:

2010-06-10T12:48:00.002+08:00

Shopperholic

Sleeperholic

Sadderholic? :(

I am not ready to fall...

Cause i am not sure whether

Are u are there to catch me.

Bless me

I hope if i fall ,
At least let me land on sth soft :)

Proclamation

2010-06-08T13:12:00.002+08:00

This Blog ( which apparently been misused for emo postings ) is going back on track.

I am going to take my chances.

2010-02-05T23:44:00.004+08:00

Most optimistic ever.

Ok as mentioned i am going to take my chances,
if not , i bet i'll regret for the rest of my life.

ARGH, i know , all that effort and will.

I'll do it for you, Just this once.

^^
Obviously i am in a good mood,
Ahh..
Love , it never fails to amaze me
Make you shocked, Make you mine.

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you poise yourself.
Trust me, you are definately not
what you mentioned
>I got no money, no cars, no cashcards, no looks, no confidence, no skills, no talent, no girlfriend. But a great life=)

You make great guy :)

我對以往的感觸還那麼多

2010-01-05T21:35:00.002+08:00

愛上你等於愛上寂寞.
最怕回憶突然翻滾絞痛著不平息
最怕突然聽到你的消息
突然好想你
突然鋒利的回憶
突然模糊的眼睛

Wo dao di hai yao guo duo jiu zhe yang de re zi.
Xing de yi nian..
wo xi wang, zhe yi qie ke yi gai bian.

This year i will...

2010-01-04T11:02:00.005+08:00

Accept
Let go
Watch the sky
Go cloud watching and find an animal or two.
See the good in people
Be more understanding
Be less indecisive
Be available *grins
Dance
Be patient
Take more chances
Write a story
Do what i love
Try harder
Reduce
Be serious
Calm down
Be true to myself and others.
Follow my own advice
Write a love letter
Show gratitude
Learn to tie a tie
Declutter my room
Be courageous
Take more photos.
Appreciate the simple things
Be spiritual
Spread Joy
Be carefree
Give up my bad habit
Complain lesser
Trust my instincts
Become an expert on something, YES, That.
...not make any resolutions above come true.

People never change...or do they?

2010-01-04T01:54:00.002+08:00

Been playing alot of LoL lately,
Well it seems that other then work, you have been pretty much playing that too.
From the pm of the game,
you seem to have a new love lately, Janicia
she is no stranger, met here once, heard alot about her from Felicia and some from you,
that you feel that she has the same kind of personality as you do.
But oh well, who knows?
The moment i saw that pm, couldnt help it but my mood went out of control again.
Vented my anger on Brian, again.
{ I am so sorry Brian, its always you. Thank you so much, if not for you i have no idea what have become of me i know i told you a gazillion times it wouldn't matter to me anymore but i just couldn't keep my promise.}
Schools, games ,Clubs and drinking my life away seems to be the only things i do after the impact when you left me.
You never seem to change at all, first it was choc, then it was me, sher, Felicia and now janicia.
I never knew what was going on in your mind all along ...
love? looks? lust?
You make me wonder, 6 years... march 14's coming again soon.
The feelings' getting greater, every year you spend it with a different girl.
Did you really think i could handle all this?
It has been a a year or two since you left me, but your voice and images just kept ringing up in my mind
day and nite,
Everytime something happens to me, i think of you, hoping that you will be there for me at that very moment
happiness, disappointment, sorrows, at the verge of breakdown,
I always hope you were there.
In reality,
...i couldn't even share a thought with you now.
Situations just had to become so bad between us...
Just like quicksand, the more i struggle to forget you, the worst it gets for me.
I am seriously ashamed of myself
全都是骗自己
其实...还爱你.
In the past, at the point where everybody thinks that it's ok for me,
only you come by telling me that i lead a lonely life that lacks joy, laughter and motivation.
You brought me those in the 4 years,
then after, you took it all away.

Memoirs

2009-11-03T09:36:00.004+08:00

I heard someone whisper your name.
I turned around to see who it was.
I was being alone.
Been acting up i suppose...
My mind is finally telling me that i miss you.

Does everything ends here?

2009-10-20T00:40:00.003+08:00

就这样结束了吗？
有点遗憾。。。
但是似乎不知道为舌么
心里好像轻松了许多，
放手真的不容易
但是。。。放手了之后的感觉的确是很不一样的。
保重了，我的灵魂伙伴
{MySoulMate}。

It‘s the kind of feeling that everyone should experience, at least once in a lifetime.

14 ) Things have come to a situation i don't know how to salvage...For the first time in six years.

2009-08-09T16:35:00.011+08:00

FUCKYOU.
sorry for the abrupt entry but yah.
i don't see y u cant see the point.
I have been with you for so long, who is the one standing side by side with you for six fucking years?
Who is the one that has been there and believe whatever that you are doing is for the better/good for so fucking long?
Seriously, its just because u had a problem with that fren(s) of urs and u applied ur so called theorem on me that i don;t put myself in ur shoes.
*JOKES. HA

AM I THE SAME AS THEM IN THE FIRST POINT.
And for her, i dun even wanna mention, just because of she said (i dunno wadever fucking miss goody-two-shoes has said) *be there for you even i dunno what ever ur frens issue. wadever blablah shit u call that * EXTREMELY COMFORTING WORDS THAT MAKE U FEEL LIKE ORGASM ISSIT.* {seriously i don't hate her nor am i giving sarcastic remarks because of u loving her, but you are making me disappointed in you instead. I don't know why so.}

AND Just because of that u actually tell me u feel that i have not trusted you and be there for you giving u the support and been giving u issues instead.
YOU ARE JUST A SERIOUSLY FUCKING BLIND/SHALLOW/IGNORANT man.
Seriously even if u die now. i wonder would she even cry that hard/be in despair for u.
Haven i been there for u for the fucking six years that i spent with you? HAVEN I ?
ARE those to be be forgotten or ignored JUST BECAUSE U FOUND MISS GOODY-TWO-SHOES THAT HAS THE ABILITY TO GIVE U COMFORTING WORDS.

Just because u happen to have her as ur colleague for barely a few months you actually tell me that.Yahyah... i can feel that you are going to tell me sometimes its not the duration of the time its the quality.
OH YEAh? if thats the case y do u think The phrase. TIME CAN NVR NVR NVR BE BOUGHT WITH MONEY come from? ANd y do people treasure it so much? i cannot believe that you can just forget and ignore or don;t even bother to think about the fact that we have spent like fucking six years of time together and tell me this at this point of time.

seriously, if not for ur frens that actually u thought abandoned you. (AND YOU ARE NW ALL ALONE because you have so DITCHED ME but still clings and tries so hard to make you happy girl is still trying to be there for you. sick of me ? i wonder.)
You would not have thot that she is
"Miss Oh so wonderful, wonderful enough to be my wife
and she is so fucking understanding, unlike the girl{typically referring to me} who is so not trusting and not being there for you at that point of time}
Have you even see the effort i am trying to hard to mend the bonds that have been broken with you and ur buddies because i feel that you truly enjoy the times you guys had even for the past six years?
And for her? she doesn't even do a thing but by just saying a sentence you can just ignore everything, all the things i have done/ been trying so hard/ been trying to please you because you feel that whatever i said is sarcasm to your miss oh so wonderful?
I beg you.
I am feeling so lost now, i tried to mend things over and over again, it doesn't seems to be working, it just seems to make things worst.
It take two hands to clap you know? If i am the only one trying, nothing is going to work.
I have to admit...
i might have just said all the stuff(be it here or vocally) that i shouldn't or didnt meant it by heart. but they are my voices within.
And its all because i love you.
I wish to shelter all your problems and pressure you are undergoing but you nolonger share them like you use to with me, u said that i have changed, but look,
You've changed, too. I miss those times we have been together and been giving support to each other no matter what happens.
I don't give refreshing new feelings but at least i can swear and promise i can give you the best care and corncern no one can be there for you like old man and wife no matter what happens in furture or now.

13

2009-08-05T19:36:00.005+08:00

13) People tend to Love things that their loverboy/girl Love. Don't they?

I love the different colours u love because u love.
I love took up the habit of drinking Green tea because u love.
I love Gaming because u love.
I love Techno and eurodance because u love.
I love Soft rock because u love.
I love Denim skirts because u say girls look pretty wearing it.
I love Listening to smoothing sleepy songs because u love.
I love Reading lovey dovey sad novels because u love.
I love Talking about horoscopes because u love talking about it.
I love to tell lame jokes because u tend to love to listen to it. ( even when u say u hate me saying lame jokes. )
I love ken-chan because u said u felt like him.
I love thinking about how and what i can do for others instead of myself because u love to do it too.
I love to cook because u said u like girls that cook.
I love your family members because you love them, despite what they say of me.
I love sasha because u love her.
I love minty stuff because u said u love it.
I love to smile really widely because u love girls with a great smile.
I love to eat Prawn mee with 2 eggs because u love it.
I love SME mac breakfast because u love it.
I love having my hair smell really great because u said u love girls with great scent on their hair.

Though i have a really bad memory,
but it seems that,
i remember every single thing that you love and thing that you said.

Tee-Elf

2009-07-28T20:46:00.002+08:00

12) The only thing you need is to feel good now.

Onze

2009-07-28T20:28:00.002+08:00

11

(^_^)

You think I don't know you're out of control.
You already know I'm not attached to material.
Boy, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so.
Yeah, what did I do but give love to you?
I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you.
From head to feet, all that's not mine.
Go ahead, let others have the keys that's not what I need from you.

I decided to give it all up.
But I'm takin' back my love.
I've given you too much.
But I'm takin' back my love.
Chorlor 的恐龙妹 decides to stop.

No. 1o

2009-07-28T01:48:00.005+08:00

1o) PDT/FMT. much?

What i know?

Lsy can't forget.

What i do not know?

Lsy do not know how to forget.

How long does it takes to forget.

What i need to know?

Lsy needs to know how to forget.
Does time really heals everything.

Neuf

2009-07-25T00:19:00.007+08:00

9)
^^
LOL
HAI! i am laughing at my stupidity.
Suddenly i don't know why am i suffering so much over you,
Spending her nights at your house eh? AGN.
Awkwardness, it feels as if u feel sinful to talk to me when i call. HA.
Ran & ran. In the end , For?
Emptiness.

8ight

2009-07-23T21:20:00.006+08:00

8) You kept falling in love, but when u fell, u always fell towards me.
I am an human/actor, not an android.
I can act, i can lie. I cant ignore my feelings.
放手?
真的能嗎?
為什么我不能呢?
不放我很痛苦..
放又放不下...
我真他妈王八蛋.
Once again, time goes by, I am hurt.
''有谁不希望爱情天长地久，但如果一段爱情让俩人觉得在一起是很累的，那为何不试着放手。。。''
Easier said than done.

Se7en

2009-07-23T00:23:00.003+08:00

7) 我会拖因为我怕痛。有一种爱叫做放手，我办的到的。

如果说你要走我不会留,然后我们说清楚一句话就够.

I guess i know whats next.
Shussh boy, i know.
do whats best for you.
I am no longer in the picture.
I just needed sometime.
At least for now.

This update meant nothing by nature. 6 } Ignore it.

2009-07-22T18:40:00.011+08:00

6. 爱，不在了。

I don't wanna run away but i cant take it, i dont understand.
6 years down the road. 我累了，
6 liters of tears. 我真的泪了。
6 thousands kisses.
6 million seconds of time spent together.
& i just realise, everything has the ability to vanish within minutes.
I would like to appreciate what ever you have done for me.
I would like to be happy for you if u found ur happiness.
But how can i do it, if it is still so hurtful after so long.
& for goodness sake, who would like to feel jealous, its not as if its ecstasy.
FUCKit.
I just can't take the fact that you fall in love so easily.
I can't take the fact that u always go against things that u assure ppl.
I hear u say over and over again that its impossible for u and her. and now?
HA, i shld've known. It's the second time/second girl anyway.
You say i shouldn't only care for myself and be so selfish, think about you. My world PRACTICALLY REVOLVES AROUND YOU. Why would i not think for you?
You are just contradicting yourself, u tell me u are not that kind of man.
But just months ago u tell me u are so deeply hurt that u don't feel like going into any relationships for now.
You are a the good man here, alrite?
I am sorry for getting jealous over every girl that u dote on & plant my sarcasms on you because of that.
But i just can't take it anymore.
I am sorry that ily.
but i really wonder.
If you are no longer by my side, would i have the strength to stand at all?
I once thought i've got u and u've got me.

[ V ]

2009-07-21T22:39:00.004+08:00

V
* Appreciate the bonds formed before they are gone, Forever.

Bonds

Took affinity to form
Took years of TLC to maintain
Yet
Took only one second to break.
That's how fragile it can be.
Quarrels, fights and arguments there may be,
should they only bring the bonds closer together.

But still...Lets not forget what great memories they bring us. ^^

Quatre

2009-07-20T14:52:00.004+08:00

4) Keep sms as memories. They are the new portable dairy.

※ 3

2009-07-20T14:28:00.006+08:00

※3. Would love to go Backpacking around the world with a partner
P.S. With him carrying the camera.

・But thy lady can't seems to fit all her necessities into one.

・OK. Maybe Luggage pack?

二.

2009-07-20T14:11:00.006+08:00

My Love For Vinegar.

2. I have the ability to be jealous of inanimate stuff.

{ Humans? No doubt :}

First of 1026.

2009-07-20T14:00:00.010+08:00

Inspired by A book. {that is not published , yet?}
This Blog is no longer dead.
Been here Since 2003 tho.

1. Have actually stalked someone's blog for 6 years.

* & He is not aware. I think i contributed to 30000 of his counter.